My train of thoughts.

I just wanna go to sleep

2011-03-21T00:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, I wish with my results, I had no chance to apply to somewhere better. Then I wouldn't have to be like that right now, trying to decide. I am stuck. This is so much shit. I don't know what to decide on, and what makes it worse is that I have to decide this single-handedly. I am no superwoman. I cannot tell my future, or heck predict it to know what is going to be best for me because right now, no one does. I don't know what my chances are, I don't know what to do. I'm only as good being blind trying to figure out where I'm headed to next. Screw this.

Sitting on my bedroom floor with the laptop.

2010-12-21T23:39:00.007+08:00

I don't know if I've been treating my baby laptop the way I should treat it, but it's been giving me problems for the past 2 weeks. Right now, it's the battery. Thank God Dell is willing to replace a new battery for me although the extended warranty does not include battery warranty.

Yesterday was a really good night out, seeing the people I've missed for nearly 6 months now. Lets the pictures do the talking :

Who doesn't love tiramisu seriously? It was super duper good, except for the fact that I only manage to eat one quarter of it thanks to some hungry monster:)

DINNERRRRR TIME!

There's something about Christmas that gets the mood going. Even Starbucks has its own Christmas coffee which I totally love:) I mean you don't see EVERYONE getting excited for Chinese New Year, Deepavali, etc etc. I guess it's that warm feeling you get listening to christmas songs, seeing pretty decorations, lights, and knowing you'll be getting presents!

Then badminton later on at 11pm. So rare but yet so fun!

Then today, I woke up at 2.30 pm today, which is super late and ate a little while watching tv and reading the newspapers. Got a call from Nigel and I had to rush to get ready in 5 minutes! Imagine a girl being able to do that, but I'm clean don't worry:) Went to 1U to run an errand with Eu-Wynn, had some good food and ... the rest is history:) It's always good to be able to spend time with friends and right now, it's shower time. Goodnight:)

YES LOOK WHO'S BACK!:D:D

2010-12-19T22:47:00.005+08:00

Why today was good.
At Departure Lounge, YUMMEEEEEY!

Always.

Randy Pausch - The Last Lecture reprised

2010-12-12T00:21:00.002+08:00

Currently reading : The Last Lecture.

Flash.

2010-12-11T16:40:00.004+08:00

Jao Ern! I've yet to meet baby Hayley! I'm so excited, be sure to bring her back on new year's eve okie?:]

Li June

Family Guy cracks me up :D

2010-12-11T01:57:00.006+08:00

Sometimes, I blog to get things out of my head. It makes me feel better although I don't say much.

Such a beautiful picture.

I have a new found love for hornbills. HAHAHAHAHA they are really special.

Same dresses, different colours:) I love the flowers!

♥

All at Pangkor Island Beach Resort,

Li June

The sequel.

2010-11-30T18:20:00.016+08:00

Sharing with you, because I'm really free now,

Awwww:) *inside joke

Tanah Lot.
One word : Beautiful:)

Bebek :O hahaha
But surprisingly, the food was waaaaay better than the name itself.
It was gooood *yums:] and it's a must try!

At Uluwatu:)

You know your uncle's cool when he says ''Drink! I'll handle your mum for you.''
HAHA.

The Barong dance. Can this thing get any scarier >:(

Babi Guling. One word : EW.
hahahaha I'm so choosy when it comes too food.

My cousin has a DSLR! Me no likey, me don't have one :( Sponsor anyone?

We took quite a few shots but none turned out well. haha.

Mama can pose too!:]

What we drank mostly throughout the 4 days. It was cheeeaaaaaap.

At Kuta. We missed the beach at Nusa Dua :(
This is why we didn't really enjoy the beach. Too crowded.

Plus, the water isn't clean. Look.

0:)

She thinks she's cool like that. LOL.

In memory of those who perished during the war in Bali. Sad :'(

Hehehe :O

On holidays, and wondering what to do >.<

Li June

Why we went to Bali in the first place.

2010-11-29T20:52:00.010+08:00

This has got to be the best wedding I've attended so far, my cousin's.

Bali people face a difficulty when it comes to spelling.

Ahhhhh, this is so much better:)

Don't you wish it was you getting married here instead?

Cutie drinking cocktail:)

Another one:)

The bride's one lucky girl for sure.

Li June

Such a sweetheart:))

2010-11-20T17:53:00.002+08:00

Li June

People to remember.

2010-11-18T23:01:00.007+08:00

Sayang's 21st surprise:)

Wasabi Chocolate Cake thank to Joe! Pity the boy.

People I might miss :

They definitely made college life so much better:) thankyouguyssssss.

I'll be gone by tmrw morning :O
I hardly feel a thing right now.

Li June

OIT,

2010-11-07T12:47:00.004+08:00

FEZAAAAAN I KNOW YOU'LL BE READING THIS.

So SAY HI!! >:p

It was so great seeing you guys:)

Li June

Head over heels.

2010-11-04T12:20:00.007+08:00

I can never pick up the skill of putting on make-up. Not even getting the hang of it, and I don't think I ever will. I'M SO GIRLYYYY. LOL.

FAIL.

Me,

and my hurt finger.

8) literally. Do you get it?
It's an emoticon, silly.
Two more weeks. So fast!

Li June

This post is to remind you that I really do love Fridays.

2010-10-30T20:20:00.006+08:00

Look,

I deserve my tub of Baskin Robbins because I am so nice to you.
EPIC FAILURE DOHHH JAO ERN:)

Say hiiiiii.

Li June

WHY am I still up.

2010-10-26T01:53:00.003+08:00

It's probably the exam anxiety. I've been trying to keep awake in every possible way. Coffee, eye drops, refraining from looking at the bed. Before I go to bed, this post is merely to make myself feel better.

This list is making me freaking excited! My holidays planned ahead to :

1) Bali
2) Pangkor
3) Ipoh and Cameron Highlands
4) Singapore
5) Indonesia. yes again. All after freaking A2!:)

Oh the anxiety. Lucky you, if you've alr gotten into uni and have gotten over fussing about uni applications :/ nyahhhh I'll have a break before getting started on that:) Meanwhile, I have a good mind of earning $$$ for a DSLR and probably a better phone / guitar or just spend it all on SHOPPINGGGG! ah, that sounds waaaay better :D There is seriously nothing you can do, without cash.

Just THREE more weeks KO LI JUNE. Excuse the tired me. Goodnightttt.

Li June

If time would just slow down.

2010-10-21T19:51:00.006+08:00

Paramore | 19.10.2010

Loved it.

This picture is ugly, but VJ Utt is so good looking!

The noisiest band ever, with no good vocals.
No wonder we all dislike local bands. Y2K.
I still cannot believe Paramore chose them for the opening act :X

Forgive the bad picture quality, but they were mind-blowing!
Kenny and Carl were at rockzone but we chose to sit than to get pushed in the sweaty crowd below :p Saw Nich too!
Thank you Joseph!

I can't catch up.
Gotta go.

Li June

Starbucks.

2010-10-16T22:22:00.005+08:00

I want moreeeee. and I want my hair back.
Oh one more thing. If you haven't already tried Kindori ice-cream, try it! It's made out of frozen fruits and it's yummy in the tummyyyyy :D

The only thing keeping me sane now is the thought of seeing Paramore. Yes paramore!
I still cannot believe exams are in a week plus. UH OH :/

Old school.

2010-10-14T10:36:00.002+08:00

"We are the music makers and we are the dreamers of dreams."

2010-10-09T17:38:00.002+08:00

TWO weeks to the big exams.
Yet, I'm sick. Panadol soluble sucks, makes me even more nauseous.
Really gotta buck up and ''break the wall'' or I'm never gna get what I want :(
I am just lucky I'm not going through it alone.

To McDs for the second time of the day.

2010-10-07T21:46:00.005+08:00

Super love McDs breakfast! yummmmms.
It starts my day, and makes my day.
McDs is pretty much considered my second home, here in Nilai.

MnMs and Di Di!
Cute lehhhh:)

I need some sausage mcmuffin + egg now.
To wake me up.
FRIDAY FRIDAAAAAAY I LOVE.

Cyanide and Happiness.

2010-10-04T19:23:00.002+08:00

Worthwhile.

2010-10-02T15:28:00.003+08:00

Contentment:)

Swam 28 laps ytd and was sooo hungry after and not to mention, exhausted :O
yeeep, stamina? Nearly powerless.
Physical attributes really matters when looking at someone. damn.
go figure.

Btw, Glee S2 is BACKKKKK. (Y) I LOVE.

“Having a positive mental attitude is asking how something can be done rather than saying it can't be done.”

2010-09-29T17:36:00.006+08:00

Seriously, I need to learn by that phrase above.

Guilt vs. indulgence.
I choose the latter.
Haha, it's the exam period and these are NECESSITIES. Yes they are. Oh and fyi, that's 5 boxes of Rocky, not 1. LOL.
ANYWAYYY, you can keep your thoughts to yourself thank you:)

I gotta stop screwing up my papers.

Saturdays.

2010-09-25T21:42:00.009+08:00

Okay, so I skipped drinking / chilling / clubbing with the cousins. So, the next smart move is to call someone out since you'll be spending Saturday night home alone and this is who I called,

my all time favourite.
This was wayyy back in Singapore for my gorgor's wedding, that explains the short hair hehehe.

Love nights spent with her, like today:)

Guess who got a second piercing just today?:D

It was totally random but yeah. I might just consider piercing the upper part of my ear after A2:) styleeeee.not.

Then while grocery shopping, GUESS WHO I SAW???

The love of my life!
And this is back in form four when we literally stuck together spending every evening after school everywhere. The infinite amount of fun and memories we had. The calls every night even on weekdays, for like at least an hour with non-stop laughter. It was crazyyyy, and things are crazy different now with me taking A-Levels and her taking ACCA! Pity the girl, she has 8 hours of class tmr and it's a freaking Sundayyyyy. I'm not gna complain about my schedule anymore it's no where near hectic compared to hers. The best part is she is happy and surviving, really really look up to her!
It felt so good to be reunited. I swear we stoned staring at each other with our mouths wide opened for like 2 minutes. Haha so totally unexpected and I cannot wait to see her again during Deepavali :pp good food and good companion. What beats that?

Oh oh as I was scrolling through my library of pictures, guess who I found :(

My baby with the cutest picture ever. What's with the expression?:) My dad fell in love with her. Just look at her baby furry ears.

But I'm so evil :'( I didn't even look when I passed her just now. wth? But she is so naughty. Even Jin-Nee and Ben helped to take care of her I remember! sobs. I don't get to see her as often anymore and I really pity her for the fact that I know she feels quite abandoned and sad being tied down most of the time. People should let their pets roam around, and not tie them down -____-'' Okay, I shall bring her for a walk when I see her again.

Anywayssss, I can't wait for tmr:) hehe. Imma go study now. byeeeeeees:)

The other MM.

2010-09-24T22:08:00.002+08:00

Cute right?:) the boys just love triple cheeseburgers.
I guess they're awesome like that.

To see the beauty in everything:)

2010-09-23T19:06:00.004+08:00

Sometimes, it's really the simplest things that matter the most. One just happened today:)

Tests are over and done with this week, more awaits in the next 2 weeks. Nope, not thrilled about it but I gotta do what I gotta do. Am so excited about the holiday plans after that. 2 months please pass by in the blink of an eye!

Dwelling on the past.

2010-09-21T16:06:00.007+08:00

Back in my composed state of mind. crunchhhh.

I miss choir.

hehehe bananapeople.

EFFED UP

2010-09-18T20:45:00.003+08:00

I'M SICK OF ROUTINES. SCREW THIS. I'M GONNA GO CRAZY!!

2010-09-18T13:15:00.002+08:00

Lets be real.
Be damn real.

Just a Dream Remix/Cover (Nelly) - Jason Chen & Joseph Vincent

2010-09-17T18:57:00.001+08:00

Joseph Vincent is so goooood looking :D Yes, the black shirt guy :p

Dain bramaged

2010-09-15T19:37:00.005+08:00

Today, I disspointed someone.

Because I just felt like I couldn't take the stress anymore and I lashed it out on someone else. poo. merde. I hurt you and made you skip breakfast and lunch. Heck yes, I shut you out. Needless to say, I was egoistic and unreasonably pissed off, like I always am.pfttt. today's just one of those days added, the gloomy weather.

I'm gna see what can be done right now to help my pathetic self.byebye.

Thank God for ahhhmazingggg people like them.

2010-09-14T19:02:00.001+08:00

SO BRILLIAAAANTTT!:)

10.09.2010

2010-09-14T13:51:00.003+08:00

I slept through the whole morning and when I woke up at 11.50 and checked the computer, I realised the gathering was at 12. HA HA. Yay me. I still took my time, as usual.

At Kensington, probably one of the best western food there is in Seremban.

Deskmate at 17.

My girl. She was in heels, yet I'm still taller :p
Okaylaaa, I know I'm still short.

I think we could win burping competitions together. HAHA.

This is less than half of the pictures taken.

I need a breather, really. It's the holidays and I am not allowed to put my books down -___- Dislike routines, EW they bore me. I have the attention span of a kitten. I think even kittens have better concentration. Seriously, where did the zeal/fire/spirit go?

Over raya break,

2010-09-11T22:49:00.016+08:00

we were at Malacca.

Telling grandma stories :p

Crazy ah? The ice-cream was really nice though.LOL.

This was really special and pretty.

So, the Saturday spent together like that.

I do not have the means to capture places or more complex things :( so faces are the best that I can do right now, but I'm not very good at it either. I so wanna be better at this! My blog might not be anything much, but do leave traces/footprints/notes when you read my blog to tell me what you think or share new stuff with me, thank youuuus :D

You know the feeling you get, when you've been missing a person so much but never had the time to meet just because college tied you both down?

2010-09-10T22:14:00.006+08:00

I was never close to her, till we got involved in Queens Guiding together. Little did we know we were in for so much work and trouble. At 16 till 17, we went through mostly everything together. All her amazing stories about boys and relationships, one word for it : OMG.period. All the craziness, the talks we had, the things we did, I really really missed her when we both left for college. Then, I saw her again today! Feels so good to be reunited:)

To the one I confide in, and went through ups and downs with me, the one who never judged me for who I am, my Korea camp mate at the foster's, you mean the world to me. You are one of the reasons why I loved school. You totally deserve this babe. I can't wait to see you again.

I LOVE YOU Nishamalar Ann Sebastian!!:)

The memories you can't forget.

2010-09-10T02:09:00.003+08:00

Last week, a friend of mine gave me this.
Uh, the nostalgia.
Queens guiding, Korea camp, and all the crazy and stressed out moments trying to keep a balance of things.
Priceless though:)

For who you are.

2010-09-09T18:57:00.005+08:00

It's so hard to blog back in college.

2010-09-05T22:02:00.005+08:00

Pictures like this are overrated, but I like this one nonetheless.
Credits to Kar Ling.

A picture is worth a thousand words; A complex idea can be conveyed with just a single still image. Love blogging with pictures & less words.

To bestfriends with love.

2010-09-05T01:01:00.007+08:00

Kiss Me - Sixpence None The Richer :D

With 6 cameras, the pictures above just doesn't justify it. YEA, we're crazy like that.

17/8 & 3/9

2010-09-04T16:15:00.008+08:00

What we had for mum's 50th,

What we had for dad's 55th,

ONE

TWO

THREEEE

TOO CUTE.

eeeeeee:)

FRIDAAAAAAYS ♥

2010-09-03T14:54:00.001+08:00

And it is daddy's birthday:)

7WEEKS.

2010-08-31T18:19:00.006+08:00

And the clock is ticking.

The worries, anticipation,break downs, stress, self-reflection, joy, and more joy after. Decisions. Surreal, unrealistic. Didn't semester 3 commence just yesterday? YIKESSSSS.

29/08/2010

2010-08-30T20:14:00.007+08:00

Of steep trails, frightful ladders, mouldy rocks, trees, more trees, worn out legs and wobbly knees at Gunung Datuk.

To the peak

So steeeeeeeep

heh waiting for my turn :D

Altophobic.

We could see Straits of Malacca from here:)

My amazing sis.

He was half an hour ahead of us :O

Mum has better stamina than me :O

On the way down

2.5 hours up, 2 hours back down. ohhh the relieve when I reached the end of the trail. A good experience nonetheless:) Then crabs after, for dinner:) Twas good!

You can choose to take your finite time and energy and effort, and you can spend it complaining or spend it playing the game hard.

2010-08-28T10:18:00.006+08:00

This must be one of the earliest mornings that I'm awake on a weekend:) and it feels kinda good:)

I sort of love badminton now and I can't wait to improve my playing :D Buttttt, I got hit in the eye during badminton ytd thanks to Lim :( Boys and smashing. What's their problem really. Did I just contradict myself :p

My pretty impressive editing skills.

2010-08-27T15:51:00.004+08:00

YES? :p

Counting down to that 10 days till I see you again :')

2010-08-26T15:48:00.010+08:00

The stress.

Test.A2.Solitudinous.

Thank God it's Friday:)

Music,

2010-08-22T00:09:00.003+08:00

a higher revelation than all.

Always there at the end of the day no matter what happens.

2010-08-21T13:01:00.006+08:00

Thank you.

Of late nights and insanity;

2010-08-06T18:21:00.002+08:00

BACKKKK! :D and skypingzzz with the awesome one who just had a haircut and is too shy to show me because he thinks it's ugly! -___- nyehehehehe. But he lied! I'm OUTTA hereeee, :)

Classes aren't coooool

2010-07-08T14:13:00.003+08:00

It's fourth day back in college. So, the third semester commences but I'm the least motivated person to attend classes and reviseeeeee. Throughout this four days, I never once went early for class. I've been at least 10 minutes late for each class. I'm a model student and everyone should be this relaxed:))) haha. Haven't touched any notes yet till now roaaaar and am sick again -.- butttt, thanks for liking my sexy voice:) Hate being prone to sorethroat damn it. Oh, and YEE Z-WIN!! I've recently started watching How I Met Your Mother, am only in season oneeeeee. Everyone around me influenced me but you were the first la LOL. so many seasonsssss -.- Just got back from lunch with Aiman:) hehe good catch up.sleep timeeee because the champion only got 2 hours sleep ytd:) I'm just so lazy to blog about the holidays.

To keep.

2010-06-30T20:33:00.005+08:00

This is gna be a random random post.okay, maybe not so random but it didnt cross my mind till he wanted me to blog about him.YES, YEE Z-WIN.I'm doing this because I am too free:) You and I, have been through a lot. You know what I mean when I say a lot and you know it's true. You've changed my life that little bit more, and for the better.I might not have said this, but

I like the fact that you never fail me.
I like the fact that I met you in INTI.
I like the fact that when I cry and sob on the phone for hours, you're always there for me.
I like how you have always tried to give me the best and give in to me even when I was being unreasonable.
I like the fact that you're more mature than many other boys our age.
I like the fact that you're crazy in a way and is a total retard at times.
I like the fact that you're a sensitive person and that you cry.
I like how you always share awesome food and chocolates with me. FATTENING!
I like the fact that we can both play the piano although I don't think I've seen you play.
I like how we never fight, but solve things by talking about them.
I like it when you hug me and tell me that exams are gna be okay the next day.
I like how we debate over matters because it gets funny after a while.
I like the fact that you speak good English.
I like how we both don't know Chinese.haha.
I like all your cute shirts you look good in them.
I like the fact that you're an extrovert and you're outgoing, always ready to meet new people.
I like how although I know I dont talk to you much these days, you'll still be there for me.

I would like you to put in more effort in your studies, with your parents, DOTA and daydream and sleep less and going for badminton with us:)

And, I'm gna be here for you when you need me. You've changed a lot. I know I've told you this before, but I really think you have. Wherever you go next, take care and remember me ohkay:)

Since you asked for it :p

2010-06-15T20:58:00.001+08:00

ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS TOH EU-WYNN!:) yea un-GG-fy together so hurry back home.just hang in there for now:)

The hearts are closer than you think.

2010-06-15T20:20:00.005+08:00

I'm finally and seriously done with exams and INTIBALL.sooo glad:)

INTIBALL 2010 was a success!:)) yayy,thanks to all the committees!There were toooo many pictures taken and it's confusing I do not know which to upload so check it out on Facebook.The pre-ball preparation and post-ball hangout was awesome:) I kinda miss seeing everyone at meeting and just sitting around.and Alex and Z-Win who are done and outta college :( hmm.Well, I guess sometimes you don't realise how much you miss something or someone till they are not here for you anymore.and it happens very often for me because I tend to take things for granted.Wanna see sth cool?:p

We QUEUED up for a picture with BUZZ AND WOODY :D
no,not childish.''it's just that we've waited 11 years for Toy Story 3 so back off kids!Toy Story first came out when we were kids,so we should be the ones getting excited over Toy Story 3'' Quote Bala:) haha.

Kids' day out.

So, to Midvalley on Sunday and talking and fooling around with Kishen sure was hell funny.hope mummy never finds out :X and yea thank daddy Justin for covering up for us :p Tiring!I think I slept for a total of only 10 hours in 3 days.so did the rest.Anyway,I Factor finals is tmr.so wish Carl all the best people:) and support him!I know we are all going to.but I wonder if he needs us since he's FAMOUS :p haha.Beau Bristow on Thursday?I JUST CANNOT WAIT!!ROARRR.It feels so good to be back and just chilling.Can't rmbr the last time I drove around knowing I have much time to spare and just going anywhere I wanted to.I did it today:) and I jogged.yay me.Let's hope this 3week jogging plan keeps up.I NEED it.Where am I now?Staying over at godma's and going back to Inti tmr:) I just know I'm gonna enjoy the hols that I've been waiting for and it's finally here!byebye people:)

2010-06-11T04:24:00.003+08:00

PURE BLISS.

Nothing beats the awesome after exams feeling right now.Tonight, was just... :) hehe.3 weeks of good good rest and entertainment.YAY me for making it pass the first stage of A-Levels.Time for some catching up with my baby girls : Mei Lin, Vanessa, Diane, Kah Mun, Rahael, and Syazaaa:) but before that, it's time to kick ass for INTIBALL 2010.

Having my new favvv hehe :p and I'm so tired so goodnightttt!It's about time I redeem my life after exams.

He feels old already

2010-06-07T14:41:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR shortie!:))))
May you be blessed with infinite mountain dew for as long as you live :p

It's 1.49 am =/

2010-06-07T01:44:00.004+08:00

Sometimes I feel like there's so much hatred in you.but then, I do not know for sure if it really is hatred or you just refuse to admit some things,stubborn as you are.As stubborn as I am too,I just wanna give in.I thought I could forget about it but I realise I cannot.I sorta love giving in to people these days.It makes me feel like a better person altogether.

yeaaah,moderation IS the way to go, without a doubt.So live by that I shall:)

These boys and obssession over mountain dew.

2010-06-06T15:44:00.009+08:00

My head keeps telling me, 5 more days 5 more days.but still I can't get my brains to concentrate on work for the last 5 days.I really gotta start doing sth.ahhh,laziness.This week was great, I'd say.Well, twas some birthday memory to keep:) it was simple but yet, very sweet of them:) I had spaghetti made by a boy, for me!:pp and boys can cook better than girls.and thanks guys again if you all ever read this.Carl made it to top 12 in Inti Idol!:)) if you dont know who this poser is, then lemme show you :

POSER SIAAA!

Singing Maroon 5 - She will be loved:)

Gay moment to calm Carl down before his turn.

Team Carl!

hehe :p

EPIC JOE.
thank us for forcing you to take a picture with Bobby Gaga!now you have a funny memory to keep.

The so called new celeb in school,Carl.

INTIBALL 2010 is next Saturday and there's so much to be done.

p/s : Carl, look out.

on my way

2010-05-26T10:32:00.002+08:00

The last thing I expected would happen to me during my exam period just happened :/ i dont usually fall sick but right nowww,i am.barely slept in the night woke up so many times, took panadol and all that crap.worst of all,stats was... :( and bio's in 2 hours.ahhhh.cant wait for 1.30pm.life'd be so much brighter then.cant waaaaait!

remaining two papers in two coming weeks.i want this misery to end.seriouslyyyy.it's draining me out:( mentally and emotionally.im just lucky they're there to back me up:) hehe.

John Mayer is ♥

2010-05-24T14:17:00.005+08:00

Studying is boring.screw this.three more weeks and im done.the anticipation....ah!wanna know what i'm thinking of even before my exams started? where i'm gonna go, what i'm gonna do and the satisfaction I get from those things.lol.but been going out once in a while :p how can I not?In the first place, I was told to study.I didnt want to.But I did what I was told, because at the age of five I couldnt make my own decisions.They always say, do what makes you happy.but studying aint a happy thing!its stressful!can I just drop studies already?and just continue hanging out in college for hanging out with friends sake!:p I do not blog because I wanna tell you about my life, I just blog when I'm bored or when I actually rmbr I have a blog.So dont wonder why the randomness in blogging.Also, I dont like telling people what I do, and what I've done unless it's like reaaally nice.Things have changed so much over the past two weeks.This year has been generally sucky, but good things are catching up :p yaaay me. And also,in two weeks, I've had 2 people that I know of who passed away, a few fell majorly sick :S oh well.So actually, my blogs pretty dead I know I'm stating the obvious but yea it's just a blog.byebyee

Something to ponder about.

2010-05-09T23:18:00.004+08:00

First Story:

This story is told about a soldier who was finally coming home after having fought in
Vietnam. He called his parents from San Francisco.

"Mom and Dad, I’m coming home, but I’ve a favor to ask. I have a friend I’d like
to bring home with me.

"Sure," they replied, "we’d love to meet him."

"There’s something you should know," the son continued, "he was hurt
pretty badly in the fighting. He stepped on a land mind and lost an arm and a leg. He has
nowhere else to go, and I want him to come live with us."

"I’m sorry to hear that, son. Maybe we can help him find somewhere to live."

"No, Mom and Dad, I want him to live with us."

"Son," said the father, "you don’t know what you’re asking. Someone with
such a handicap would be a terrible burden on us. We have our own lives to live, and we
can’t let something like this interfere with our lives. I think you should just come home
and forget about this guy. He’ll find a way to live on his own."

At that point, the son hung up the phone. The parents heard nothing more from him. A
few days later, however, they received a call from the San Francisco police. Their son had
died after falling from a building, they were told. The police believed it was suicide.

The grief-stricken parents flew to San Francisco and were taken to the city morgue to
identify the body of their son. They recognized him, but to their horror they also
discovered something they didn’t know, their son had only one arm and one leg.

The parents in this story are like many of us. We find it easy to love those who are
good-looking or fun to have around, but we don’t like people who inconvenience us or make
us feel uncomfortable. We would rather stay away from people who aren’t as healthy,
beautiful, or smart as we are.

Thankfully, there’s someone who won’t treat us that way. Someone who loves us with an
unconditional love that welcomes us into the forever family, regardless of how messed up
we are.

Tonight, before you tuck yourself in for the night, say a little prayer that God will
give you the strength you need to accept people as they are, and to help us all be more
understanding of those who are different from us!!! There’s a miracle called Friendship
That dwells in the heart You don’t know how it happens Or when it gets started But you
know the special lift It always brings. And you realize that Friendship Is God’s most
precious gift!

Friends are a very rare jewel, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to
succeed. They lend an ear, they share a word of praise, and they always want to open their
hearts to us. Show your friends how much you care….

Second story:

Dear Patrick,

I was then an only child who had everything I could ever want. But even a pretty,
spoiled and rich kid could get lonely once in a while so when Mom told me that she was
pregnant, I was ecstatic. I imagined how wonderful you would be and how we’d always be
together and how much you would look like me. So, when you were born, I looked at your
tiny hands and feet and marveled at how beautiful you were.

We took you home and I showed you proudly to my friends. They would touch you and
sometimes pinch you, but you never reacted. When you were five months old, some things
began to bother Mom. You seemed so unmoving and numb, and your cry sounded odd — almost
like a kitten’s. So we brought you to many doctors.

The thirteenth doctor who looked at you quietly said you have the "cry du
chat" (pronounced Kree-do-sha) syndrome, "cry of the cat" in French.

When I asked what that meant, he looked at me with pity and softly said, "Your
brother will never walk nor talk." The doctor told us that it is a condition that
afflicts one in 50,000 babies, rendering victims severely retarded. Mom was shocked and I
was furious. I thought it was unfair.

When we went home, Mom took you in her arms and cried. I looked at you and realized
that word will get around that you’re not normal. So to hold on to my popularity, I did
the unthinkable … I disowned you. Mom and Dad didn’t know but I steeled myself not to
love you as you grew. Mom and Dad showered you love and attention and that made me bitter.
And as the years passed, that bitterness turned to anger, and then hate.

Mom never gave up on you. She knew she had to do it for your sake.

Everytime she put your toys down, you’d roll instead of crawl. I watched her heart
break every time she took away your toys and strapped your tummy with foam so you couldn’t
roll. You struggle and you’re cry in that pitiful way, the cry of the kitten. But she
still didn’t give up.

And then one day, you defied what all your doctors said — you crawled.

When mom saw this, she knew you would eventually walk. So when you were still crawling
at age four, she’d put you on the grass with only your diapers on knowing that you hate
the feel of the grass on your skin.

Then she’d leave you there. I would sometimes watch from the windows and smile at your
discomfort. You would crawl to the sidewalk and Mom would put you back. Again and again,
Mom repeated this on the lawn. Until one day, Mom saw you pull yourself up and toddle off
the grass as fast as your little legs could carry you.

Laughing and crying, she shouted for Dad and I to come. Dad hugged you crying openly.

I watched from my bedroom window this heartbreaking scene.

Over the years, Mom taught you to speak, read and write. From then on, I would sometime
see you walk outside, smell the flowers, marvel at the birds, or just smile at no one. I
began to see the beauty of the world through your eyes. It was then that I realized that
you were my brother and no matter how much I tried to hate you, I couldn’t, because I had
grown to love you.

During the next few days, we again became acquainted with each other. I would buy you
toys and give you all the love that a sister could ever give to her brother. And you would
reward me by smiling and hugging me.

But I guess, you were never really meant for us. On your tenth birthday, you felt
severe headaches. The doctor’s diagnosis –leukemia. Mom gasped and Dad held her, while I
fought hard to keep my tears from falling. At that moment, I loved you all the more. I
couldn’t even bear to leave your side. Then the doctors told us that your only hope is to
have a bonemarrow transplant. You became the subject of a nationwide donor search. When at
last we found the right match, you were too sick, and the doctor reluctantly ruled out the
operations. Since then, you underwent chemotherapy and radiation.

Even at the end, you continued to pursue life. Just a month before you died, you made
me draw up a list of things you wanted to do when you got out of the hospital. Two days
after the list was completed, you asked the doctors to send you home. There, we ate ice
cream and cake, run across the grass, flew kites, went fishing, took pictures of one
another and let the balloons fly. I remember the last conversation that we had. You said
that if you die, and if I need of help, I could send you a note to heaven by tying it on
the string of any balloon and letting it fly. When you said this, I started crying. Then
you hugged me. Then again, for the last time, you got sick.

That last night, you asked for water, a back rub, a cuddle. Finally, you went into
seizure with tears streaming down your face. Later, at the hospital, you struggled to talk
but the words wouldn’t come. I know what you wanted to say. "Hear you," I
whispered. And for the last time, I said, "I’ll always love and I will never forget
you. Don’t be afraid. You’ll soon be with God in heaven." Then, with my tears flowing
freely, I watched the bravest boy I had ever known finally stop breathing. Dad, Mom and I
cried until I felt as if there were no more tears left. Patrick was finally gone, leaving
us behind.

From then on, you were my source of inspiration. You showed me how to love life and
live to the fullest. With your simplicity and honesty, you showed me a world full of love
and caring. And you made me realize that the most important thing in this life is to
continue loving without asking why or how and without setting any limit.

Thank you, my little brother, for all these.

This two stories was sent to me by Kynnen.I havent had the time to read it till now.very touching esp the second one:) and yes,people should learn to love.anger and hatred are for the weak.those who are not daring enough to love more and give more.what did you learn after reading?

To the brotherrr Alex :

2010-04-30T16:44:00.003+08:00

happy birthdayyy:) nineteeeen years old already:)
i sooo syg you right right!<3

two things this weekend, which changed me for good

2010-04-25T13:41:00.005+08:00

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you apprieciate them when they are right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

Marilyn Monroe